Ever since I can remember, I've been one of the most self-conscious people I know. I wasn't always the smallest in size of my friends and I definitely have the worst skin, which doesn't clear up with anything.
It's always been hard for me to make new friends. Up until high school, I had the same friends in my classes every year as well as my first year of high school. Whenever I do make new friends, it's usually through someone I already know. That makes things much easier.
So my problem here in college is that I know hardly anyone that well, and when the three people I hang out with are gone... what am I supposed to do?
The answer?
I know not.
I try to remember positive sayings and positive thoughts.
I try to remember that there are people do actually like me for me, but how do I know people who don't know me will ever feel the same?
I don't know why I care so much, I really don't. I wish I did though.
It makes me mad I care about everyone else so much. I don't laugh as much, I don't sing (terribly) as much; I don't feel like myself very often anymore.
This needs to change.
Tomorrow morning, I will grab myself some Starbucks and say "I can do better."
(p.s. thank you angelica.)
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