It's a natural thing, being insecure about something.
Whether it be a slightly crooked nose, a singing voice, or something"un-cool" that you happen to like.
For me though, it's a lot of stuff. & it really kills me.
As you know, I started college this year and, usually, for most people it's a fresh start to make new friends and to do all these new things and have some of the best times of your life.
But for me, it hasn't been that way and it makes me feel pretty pathetic sometimes.
I feel like I'm so awkward or not "cool" enough, or not driven enough...just not enough most of the time.
I don't know how to make friends; I'm shy.
And it's so hard when I see all these people I know from high school having the best time and have so many friends, and I wish that was me, too.
But I just don't know how.
I feel like that sounds so silly. I don't know how to change when obviously I need to do and feel the opposite of how I do about myself. But it's something thats just so hard to break.
I try to make progress, keep my head up, but then one little thing happens and I slip right back.
I'm really at a loss.
But I do not want to look back on my life and regret not taking chances or being too self conscious to do anything. I think that, that, may be my biggest fear.
So.... if anyone has any advice, I'd for real appreciate it.
I'd like to start liking myself.
xx, Coop.
